Mixed feelings in a single day.....Some what good.

Suddenly what happened to me....? All of sudden getting compliments.... My dad is happy today with me. ha ha So happy to hear it from dad. Now concentrating on my negative points and trying to get rid of them, and now am able to solve two of them and as a result got wishes and heard exclamation marks in my best friend voice. So happy for that also..... Am writing this only to make an habit of writing dairy every day. For me, I feel change started...., Hope am able to continue it and will be able to solve all my negatives in regular intervals. At the same time faced some disappointment things from my dear friend also....Got angry because that stupid is neglecting me. Of course there is heavy work and might be because of that it happened..... Let me hope for the best again and every thing will be normal soon.....! Attended for CTS written test and fingers crossed about the result...suddenly my dear H.O.D sir's words flashed in my mind - "Don't worry about result. Take care of the effort that you made." So happy with these words. they helped me a lot, in my effort I'm done. So, happy. Tired with journey, and all of these tensions. now feeling sleepy. Good night world.....Have great dreams....! From today on wards want to show up a quote that inspired me....and my quote for today is - “Nothing of me is original. I am the combined effort of everybody I've ever known.” BY ― Chuck Palahniuk.

My mood

Why my life is like this? Am I lost? finally facing the worse moment.....! I never imagined such a disaster.....Why I was in Bangalore and doing what?For what purpose I came here?I am completely collapsed and lost everything....why is it so? why so??????Really don't know what to do...where to start and how to reach my point. Really want to do something and want to prove what I am capable of. But not able to do any thing. Why I am not getting at least one chance to prove my self or why I am not able to create a chance for self???? why am I reaching a peak point of disappointment? I really need some positive energy,truly need one guy to support me, to give me strength but no one is there. Though I have friends with me,they are also facing the same problem. I can't expect it from them. I need one who can project my strengths in front me, who can inject positive energy to me and I need one who will give their hand and support me. But no one is there. Now it's time for me to realize everything. In this kind of situation I am the one who can project my strengths and I must be the one who has to support my self. No one will be there to support you in every situation, this is the situation where I have to prove to the world what I am. I have to prove that though I was left alone I can with stand and I can reach the highs. Now I want to believe in myself. Now I'm not in a competition with any one else. I just want to run my own race. I have no desire to play the game of being better than any one else around me, I just aim to become a better person than I was. Wish me all the best and let me reach my goal.....